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I Want to Live With Abandon

“For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him.” Philippians 2:13 (NLT)

Chasing after this world had made me tired and unsatisfied in life. I knew there had to be more than what I was doing to make my life here on this earth count. So, I started soul searching and realized that my identity had been tied to my career instead of to Jesus. I began feeling my heart being pulled toward heaven instead of earthly things.

One Sunday morning, when I plopped down in a purple chair at church, I felt ready to renew my mind and spend some precious time in worship. As Pastor Tim Beal walked up to the stage, I knew I was in the right place. Who doesn’t love a laugh or two along with a powerful message?

Then, something unexpected happened. Something began stirring deep within my soul. It was a peculiar feeling, and I knew that something was about to interrupt my life, my world.

Pastor Tim recounted the story of Matthew 14:22–33 when Peter was in the boat and looked out to see Jesus walking on water. Peter said to Jesus, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you,” and Jesus replied, “Yes, come” (verse 28–29 NLT). Without hesitation, Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus.

In that moment, I instantly knew that Jesus was calling me to get out of my selfish and comfortable boat. He was asking me to leave my career and completely follow Him, because if I didn’t, I would never witness a miracle like walking on water.

Jesus’ call was more than an interruption—it was an invitation. It was an invitation to abandon my past and move toward an abundant life. With tears streaming down my face, I knew I was done. I would leave behind nothing that mattered, and I would never look back.

I want to make a difference. I want to live with abandon.

Lord Jesus, thank you for constantly inviting us to be in Your presence. Thank you that we can abandon our past and walk toward You. Guide me; hold out Your hand so I, too, can walk on water. Amen.

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